There are truths sitting here with me right now that I don’t want to face. I feel physically uncomfortable in the midst of them. I want nothing more than to close this computer, crawl into bed, and bury my head for the rest of the night. I want to detach, disconnect, forget. I want to pretend I don’t care. I am not the person I want to be. These are not the days I want for myself. And yet, I keep creating them. The same day over and over and over again. I don’t want my life to be something I have to spend so much time trying to escape. And yet, I didn’t do anything differently today.

Someday, something is going to change. I have to believe that.